Hey everyone,
I decided to add a third and fourth color since this post is going to be pretty lengthy!
Also, there's a slight chance this post will include detailed descriptions of my experience and the process of certain things (so basically, talk of sores, spit, and stuff! I'll put it in.. Pink! I'll try not to have that much..)
You have been warned!
THE NEXT POST I MAKE ON THIS BLOG WILL HAVE PICTURES, AUDIO, AND POSSIBLY VIDEO (If I decide I haven't embarrassed myself enough)!
AN:
Text in purple = Personal Life
Text in black = Dental Work
Text in pink = possibly icky (pass over pink if squeamish to the body)
Text in green = Shortcut (The summary to all of this)
It's official! As of August, I have completely finished all of my dental work! Since the beginning of this life-changing experience, I have grown as a person and become more knowledgable and happy. Even looking back, I feel maybe writing this was dramatic. That's alright though. I believe it will still be nice to look back on and reflect. I am much more aware of the importance of self-care as well as how to maintain a healthy mind. To finish off with this blog, I wanted to keep my word as far as posting pictures of before and after my work.
I feel pretty bad considering I'm just now adding my final procedure all of this time later. I graduated High School, I went through a breakup, I went through two jobs, I had a major home life change.
Reading back, I see how my maturity-- just my mindset and perspective has shifted and changed over time. Even though at some moments I thought about deleting this entirely, I've decided not to.
Over the years, I have experienced a roller-coaster of emotions. I had to overcome many hardships- whether they were associated with my dental work or in my personal life. I feel other than the people who comforted me and accompanied me to my appointments, I have all of you to thank. Whether you are or were just passing through and happened to take a moment to read about my situation, it's kept me motivated to keep trying and to keep my head up.
I had a hard time remembering what the purpose was in writing about this. I had experienced much negativity in school and didn't feel anything I was doing or even myself really mattered at all. This is meant to be a happy post though! So don't worry, I won't complain too much! :)
Don't get me wrong, I know I haven't had it worse than others, and best believe I am grateful for all that has been done for me. I'm so grateful for all that I have, whether it be materialistic or not.
So, where do I begin?
I received the clip-in pieces (partials) and considering I'm writing this, months after, I can say I'm most likely going to stick with my partials and not go any further as far as getting implants. Not only will it save me money, but I have found more upsides to having these partials, than if I were to have implants. One of them being, if something were to go wrong with my partials, considering my anxiety of dentists, I can just click it right out without having to undergo any of the procedure myself!
SADLY, since I'm writing this months later, I have also lost the ability to remember as much as before. I'll do my best.
First of all, when I got my braces off, WOW! Emphasis on the OW! I wouldn't wish braces on my worst enemy, haha! Luckily, it was pretty quick. The nice woman who was taking them off, offered to give me a break after taking my top braces off (again, because they're super uncomfortable and not pleasant to remove), but It's just like when I got my ears pierced, let's just get this over with!
After they were taken off, I got a mold done of my top and bottom teeth in order to get the partials. The molds this time versus the first time ever I got molds, you could see the different techniques and tools they learned. When I first got them done, I had to use a child's mouthpiece size since I have a small mouth. Because of this, the stuff they use to make the molds was super messy and suffocating! This time, however, they had smaller mouthpieces, and even flavors to choose from for the molds. It wasn't suffocating and it was much easier to not focus on the discomfort and the triggering of my gag reflex! Yay!
After the partials came in, I was scheduled to come and pick them up. My boyfriend, Zack, drove me to my appointment. Dr. D came in and clipped in my top and bottom partial piece. He then handed me a mirror asking me what I think, and I cried like a baby, haha! He showed me where the metal clips are supposed to go, and how I'll know when the pieces are actually clipped correctly.
When My appointment was over, I took a picture with both of my dentists, where they then gave me a printed out picture of my before and after photos, which you'll see shortly, as well as my own. :)
When I got home, I showed my mother, who also cried (now you know where I get it from :D ), and I showed my dad, who just stared in disbelief.
Shortly after, I had to go back to the dentist in order to have part of my bottom partial shaved down near my gum, considering it was jabbing me in the nerve!
Now that my monthly visits to the dentist were no longer a thing, I had to adjust to my new life with partials and growing my self-love to have some confidence again. This was going to be much easier considering at this point I graduated High School, and no longer had to worry about other people bringing me down, and the pressure to fit in from my peers. My partials were painful at first, and I had to take small breaks in order to adjust to them. I was told I would find myself salivating more than usual, struggling with speech, triggering my gag reflex, and most likely developing sores until my mouth adjusted.
Luckily, from all of the other work, and the persistent sores inside of my mouth from the braces, I only developed sores, gagged, and drooled on myself nonstop for about 3 days!
The only problem I face now is I had a breakout of clear sores on my inner bottom lip to the point I now have a medicated lip balm that helps keep them away. I only have to use it once in a blue moon at this point.
I was told I would most likely talk with a speech impediment, just for a bit until I learned the new placement and form of my mouth and tongue. I couldn't pronounce certain words with S, T, CH.. and so on (for example, pronounce sounded like puh-nounth). Hysterically enough, It didn't affect my speech when I'd sing. Since I love singing, I made sure to sing daily and talk as much as possible to speed up the process. Soon enough, I was talking perfectly normal!
I was told I could/should eat with my partials in, but I strongly dislike it. The partials have the grooves of your palette, therefore, you tend to get food particles stuck in these.. crevices, and can be difficult to clean. You're also not supposed to sleep with your partials in, but I feel I have to every now and again considering my teeth shift so fast, making it extremely difficult to put back in when I wake.
I make sure to thoroughly clean both pieces every morning, after each meal, and every night before sleeping, whether I put them in the container or have to sleep with a certain one in (which again, is not often). The reason to not sleep with partials is that the metal hooks that clip on to your teeth can cause cavities on your teeth, from holding bacteria or your teeth having leftover plaque!
I had to learn how to be open again! From being so insecure of my mouth, I always covered it when I laughed, smiled, and talked. I had to teach myself to keep my hands away from my mouth when I smile, laugh, and talk. I forgot how to smile, and found myself laughing hysterically at the super cringe-worthy selfies glaring back at me.
I found myself extremely self-conscious of myself for having partials though. I'm the type of person who copes through talking poorly about themself, so yes. There were a ton of grandma jokes until I saw more people my age with partials, and found the realization there are actually many people with partials, that I've never taken notice of before.
All in all, I'm so grateful for this experience. I'm grateful for the kindness of my dentists and everyone who assisted. It's because of their dedication, and honest passion and dedication to their work that I was blessed with this opportunity. Since my final appointment, I have struggled to find something to show my gratitude, considering they changed my entire life and self-image.
How do you repay such an act of kindness? You can't just buy them lunch... I feel it needs to be much more meaningful than that. Hopefully, I come up with something soon.
Once again, I want to say thank you to every one of you who has tagged along with me. Thank you for all of your kind words, and for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers when I needed them most.
Most people stick to their roots of family and people known in everyday life to let into their hearts, make real differences, and show true care. I have always been one to connect much easier online, and I have found that most of the words I hear when I feel like giving up, come from you.
Thank you. I can't say it enough, however, I think I'm going to keep rambling if I don't end this. The next post I make, I will show you some different photos or other media that I have of myself before and after all of this.
I'm a bit scared to do this, so please be nice!
If you have any questions or comments about anything, that you may have wanted to ask me, or any questions in general related to my mouth or me as a person.. If you want to share a story: with me or... anything!
Send me an Email!
Budstac56@gmail.com
Monday, April 6, 2020
Tuesday, February 12, 2019
January 25th, 2019 - Maybe Next Time..!
Hello again,
I'll try not to make this post too long!
AN: Bold print is about the dentist // Yellowish Print is about personal life
January 25th,
I went to the dentist to tighten my braces. I was supposedly going to get them taken off to start with my permanent clip-ins, but that didn't happen. If I understood correctly, the reason being they are trying to prevent me from having an overbite, and are trying to pull down my K9 tooth a bit more. Depending on how much progress my mouth makes, I will possibly start with my permanent clip-ins next time.
SN: I will post the pictures of my mouth from beginning to end within a few months. :)
My next appointment is on March 6th at 2pm!
The last time I posted, I was pretty upset. Maybe this is unnecessary, but I feel I should apologize for having such a depressing tone. I hate to come across as ungrateful or unappreciative of all that I have, and that has been done for me. Life being the way it is has started to look up for me once again.
(Insert awkward placement of self-promotion below)
If you're interested, I'll post a URL to the site once we have it running. So far, we decided to call it Save Haven. I was obsessed with the movie Safe Haven and thought it could be a good name, with some wordplay. It's also a bonus considering the movie took place in North Carolina!
I have been thinking about starting some other blogs, as well. For entertainment purposes, I feel they may be worth the read! I have always been nervous to try new things though, still am!
I hope all is well and thank-you for taking the time to hear about my life. :)
I'll try not to make this post too long!
AN: Bold print is about the dentist // Yellowish Print is about personal life
January 25th,
I went to the dentist to tighten my braces. I was supposedly going to get them taken off to start with my permanent clip-ins, but that didn't happen. If I understood correctly, the reason being they are trying to prevent me from having an overbite, and are trying to pull down my K9 tooth a bit more. Depending on how much progress my mouth makes, I will possibly start with my permanent clip-ins next time.
SN: I will post the pictures of my mouth from beginning to end within a few months. :)
My next appointment is on March 6th at 2pm!
The last time I posted, I was pretty upset. Maybe this is unnecessary, but I feel I should apologize for having such a depressing tone. I hate to come across as ungrateful or unappreciative of all that I have, and that has been done for me. Life being the way it is has started to look up for me once again.
I left my job, and am currently working towards starting an online store with my mother. She used to be an active seller on eBay, but due to their current terms and conditions, she no longer feels motivated to sell on their site.
(Insert awkward placement of self-promotion below)
If you're interested, I'll post a URL to the site once we have it running. So far, we decided to call it Save Haven. I was obsessed with the movie Safe Haven and thought it could be a good name, with some wordplay. It's also a bonus considering the movie took place in North Carolina!
I have been thinking about starting some other blogs, as well. For entertainment purposes, I feel they may be worth the read! I have always been nervous to try new things though, still am!
Anyways,
Monday, January 14, 2019
1/14/19 IT IS 2019! Update on Life: Slightly depressing!
This is mainly an update on how life has been going for me! I will put in a different color font my dental portions for those of you who are only interested in such. I'm also tired, so excuse my worse than normal writing skills. :)
When I last visited the Dentist, I did not get my braces off like expected. Instead I got another ligature, and my rubber band class moved up. I was told by my next appointment, if my teeth shifted enough, I would then have my braces taken off. I also have to get a cavity in my upper right molar filled. My mouth truly rejects my teeth! Hopefully, I am on the path to having a nearly perfect smile.
It is officially 2019, and I am hoping there are mostly good things in store for me this year! On the first, I was told I'd be getting a raise; and on the fifth, I found out I couldn't keep a job... Since I don't drive yet (I know, an 18 year old who doesn't drive! Alert the media...) and my family car (aside from my fathers vehicle) was the only source of transportation I had.. Notice I said was.. Well, I couldn't keep my job.
My father going to work and having to also come home and drive me or pick me up, became too much of an obstacle. Also, since we live off of paycheck to paycheck, financially everything has gone downhill. This has also affected me and my family emotionally since we now rarely leave the house or do anything. I hate to be so depressing, but overall, things haven't been going great, and I just don't lie. Especially when it comes to this. Sometimes I feel like the only thing that I have that's real anymore is this journey and what I've written. Having a job has made me realize many things.
For example, I always knew that some people are rude, but I guess I never knew just how many. I have been cussed out, put down, harassed and so on. The amount of anxiety I had going into this job verses my attitude leaving, is drastically different. I don't care so much anymore about being judged by others, which is a positive takeaway. I have had a lot of time to think now, and have made up my mind on a few things that will be within my reach soon. I decided that I'm going to risk it all for a music career. I've been wanting to be a singer since I was four and have never shaken it.
About 6 years ago, I started posting on Smule and SoundCloud by just holding my phone up to my mouth, and believe me; it is just as awful as it sounds! Somehow, I managed to get a ton of views on certain tracks which has made me feel a bit more motivated, but once again, there's a setback. I don't have a suitable computer to record and/or produce music on anymore. So, in addition to having to save for a car; SOMEHOW get my license AND go to college, I also need a computer FOR COLLEGE and to be able to do my music stuff seriously again. Ugh. Can't I just win the lottery?
I only need to win about $5,000. I can buy a new fridge for my family so we can stop putting our milk in the freezer. I can buy 2 cheap cars (one for my family and one for me personally) and I could get a computer and any left over money my parents could put towards the bills that are piling up.
I know this post was probably not what you were expecting, but I just felt like over sharing tonight.
I hope all of you are doing okay, and I hope everyone had Happy Holidays. If you feel like sharing some positive vibes, feel free to comment any good things in your life. Whether they are past, present or future. You can comment whatever you're thinking or feeling, really! :D Anyways, have a good night, and I'll post again soon. My next appointment is January 25th.
When I last visited the Dentist, I did not get my braces off like expected. Instead I got another ligature, and my rubber band class moved up. I was told by my next appointment, if my teeth shifted enough, I would then have my braces taken off. I also have to get a cavity in my upper right molar filled. My mouth truly rejects my teeth! Hopefully, I am on the path to having a nearly perfect smile.
It is officially 2019, and I am hoping there are mostly good things in store for me this year! On the first, I was told I'd be getting a raise; and on the fifth, I found out I couldn't keep a job... Since I don't drive yet (I know, an 18 year old who doesn't drive! Alert the media...) and my family car (aside from my fathers vehicle) was the only source of transportation I had.. Notice I said was.. Well, I couldn't keep my job.
My father going to work and having to also come home and drive me or pick me up, became too much of an obstacle. Also, since we live off of paycheck to paycheck, financially everything has gone downhill. This has also affected me and my family emotionally since we now rarely leave the house or do anything. I hate to be so depressing, but overall, things haven't been going great, and I just don't lie. Especially when it comes to this. Sometimes I feel like the only thing that I have that's real anymore is this journey and what I've written. Having a job has made me realize many things.
For example, I always knew that some people are rude, but I guess I never knew just how many. I have been cussed out, put down, harassed and so on. The amount of anxiety I had going into this job verses my attitude leaving, is drastically different. I don't care so much anymore about being judged by others, which is a positive takeaway. I have had a lot of time to think now, and have made up my mind on a few things that will be within my reach soon. I decided that I'm going to risk it all for a music career. I've been wanting to be a singer since I was four and have never shaken it.
About 6 years ago, I started posting on Smule and SoundCloud by just holding my phone up to my mouth, and believe me; it is just as awful as it sounds! Somehow, I managed to get a ton of views on certain tracks which has made me feel a bit more motivated, but once again, there's a setback. I don't have a suitable computer to record and/or produce music on anymore. So, in addition to having to save for a car; SOMEHOW get my license AND go to college, I also need a computer FOR COLLEGE and to be able to do my music stuff seriously again. Ugh. Can't I just win the lottery?
I only need to win about $5,000. I can buy a new fridge for my family so we can stop putting our milk in the freezer. I can buy 2 cheap cars (one for my family and one for me personally) and I could get a computer and any left over money my parents could put towards the bills that are piling up.
I know this post was probably not what you were expecting, but I just felt like over sharing tonight.
I hope all of you are doing okay, and I hope everyone had Happy Holidays. If you feel like sharing some positive vibes, feel free to comment any good things in your life. Whether they are past, present or future. You can comment whatever you're thinking or feeling, really! :D Anyways, have a good night, and I'll post again soon. My next appointment is January 25th.
Tuesday, November 27, 2018
Update on Life: What’s next? 11/27/18
Hey everyone,
I am typing this on my cellphone, while also half asleep. I apologize in advance!
It has been far too long since I last posted about what’s going on with my dental work, as well as in my life. I now have a job at FoodLion as a cashier! I also graduated from High School and am working towards college! I have braces and have been going every four weeks to tighten them, and see where things need to be moved. I’ve had several contraptions put in so far to work towards having a symmetrical and healthy smile. :) I’ll try to explain the best I can.. My Eyetooth was pulled down with an anchor and then had a sidewinder placed on it to turn it straight. Some of my bottom teeth that were turned inwards had sidewinders places on them to turn them out. Lately, my dentists and I have been working on making my midline even, by shifting my upper teeth over to the right more. A crucial part on my end is making sure I’m putting in my rubber bands when necessary, and changing them when needed. The rubber bands have been helping pull my upper teeth over my bottom so I don’t develop an overbite. I’ve had braces now for about a year, possibly a year and 6 months. My next visit is on December 18th, and I will be having a 3D Scan done to see what all needs to be done now. I was also told I’ll be finding out if I can have my braces removed and the rest of my teeth put in.
As I’m nearing the end of this whole process, I have noticed drastic changes about myself internally and externally.
I smile, a lot! I never used to smile.... I would smirk. I would never laugh, either without covering my mouth with my hand. I’ve noticed I constantly smile and laugh now. I still will cover my mouth occasionally or turn away from people, but I’m not so self-conscious about my mouth as I was before. I also have been eating better.
When I got my braces, I was blending all of my foods. I was afraid to eat many things because of my braces.. I would feel embarrassed and foolish every time I would prepare food in front of my family.. Luckily, my family was/is extremely supportive of my ordeal and my Pseudodysphagiag. Slowly but surely, I wouldn’t blend my foods as much, leaving texture to it. Like an infant, I gradually ate foods with more texture and more to chew.. Now, I’m proud to say I have extended my food options. I can now eat things like Chicken Salad, Fish, Fettuccini, etc.
Now when I look in the mirror, I don’t only look better, but I feel better.
I’m rather excited to share with all of you, and expose the amazing people who have been helping me and supporting me since I was a child.
My family raised me on the expressions of family being all you’ve got. That a families love is unconditional and trust is without borders. From all of the bullying and pain I endured as a child; at a young age I was under the impression that kindness was on the brink of extinction.
I wanted so desperately for someone to prove me wrong, and someone did.
No one asked my dentists to take over 6 figures out of their own pockets and use it on a 16 year old girl with bad genes and bad luck. No one told them they must make everything perfect and use only the best materials and so on. No one made them take me on as their patient. They did that out of love, out of trust in each other and me and out of the kindness of their hearts. The amount of respect and appreciation I have for them is beyond words or my moral understanding.
I started writing this blog to raise awareness of disorders like mine, and to share a life changing experience with anyone willing to listen.
In some way, I plan to repay them for their dedication and hard work... I just need to figure out HOW.
I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving! I’ll be posting again before Christmas about how it went! Thank you for all of the support throughout this experience, it may not seem like much to you, but it means everything to me! 💕
I am typing this on my cellphone, while also half asleep. I apologize in advance!
It has been far too long since I last posted about what’s going on with my dental work, as well as in my life. I now have a job at FoodLion as a cashier! I also graduated from High School and am working towards college! I have braces and have been going every four weeks to tighten them, and see where things need to be moved. I’ve had several contraptions put in so far to work towards having a symmetrical and healthy smile. :) I’ll try to explain the best I can.. My Eyetooth was pulled down with an anchor and then had a sidewinder placed on it to turn it straight. Some of my bottom teeth that were turned inwards had sidewinders places on them to turn them out. Lately, my dentists and I have been working on making my midline even, by shifting my upper teeth over to the right more. A crucial part on my end is making sure I’m putting in my rubber bands when necessary, and changing them when needed. The rubber bands have been helping pull my upper teeth over my bottom so I don’t develop an overbite. I’ve had braces now for about a year, possibly a year and 6 months. My next visit is on December 18th, and I will be having a 3D Scan done to see what all needs to be done now. I was also told I’ll be finding out if I can have my braces removed and the rest of my teeth put in.
As I’m nearing the end of this whole process, I have noticed drastic changes about myself internally and externally.
I smile, a lot! I never used to smile.... I would smirk. I would never laugh, either without covering my mouth with my hand. I’ve noticed I constantly smile and laugh now. I still will cover my mouth occasionally or turn away from people, but I’m not so self-conscious about my mouth as I was before. I also have been eating better.
When I got my braces, I was blending all of my foods. I was afraid to eat many things because of my braces.. I would feel embarrassed and foolish every time I would prepare food in front of my family.. Luckily, my family was/is extremely supportive of my ordeal and my Pseudodysphagiag. Slowly but surely, I wouldn’t blend my foods as much, leaving texture to it. Like an infant, I gradually ate foods with more texture and more to chew.. Now, I’m proud to say I have extended my food options. I can now eat things like Chicken Salad, Fish, Fettuccini, etc.
Now when I look in the mirror, I don’t only look better, but I feel better.
I’m rather excited to share with all of you, and expose the amazing people who have been helping me and supporting me since I was a child.
My family raised me on the expressions of family being all you’ve got. That a families love is unconditional and trust is without borders. From all of the bullying and pain I endured as a child; at a young age I was under the impression that kindness was on the brink of extinction.
I wanted so desperately for someone to prove me wrong, and someone did.
No one asked my dentists to take over 6 figures out of their own pockets and use it on a 16 year old girl with bad genes and bad luck. No one told them they must make everything perfect and use only the best materials and so on. No one made them take me on as their patient. They did that out of love, out of trust in each other and me and out of the kindness of their hearts. The amount of respect and appreciation I have for them is beyond words or my moral understanding.
I started writing this blog to raise awareness of disorders like mine, and to share a life changing experience with anyone willing to listen.
In some way, I plan to repay them for their dedication and hard work... I just need to figure out HOW.
I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving! I’ll be posting again before Christmas about how it went! Thank you for all of the support throughout this experience, it may not seem like much to you, but it means everything to me! 💕
Wednesday, March 21, 2018
January 16th, 2018 - I GOT MY BRACES!
I'm awful!
I am completely pitiful at keeping up with these blog posts!
Ah...
I don't know the next date exactly I will be posting again, but I will still be posting as I go through the rest of my appointments no matter how small or insignificant.
I finally got my braces!
I'm so happy, but I'm in so much pain!
In my opinion (because of all of the other things I have gone through), I feel I have a very high pain tolerance...
In the beginning, for the first 10 days, the pain was extremely irritating. It was not unbearable, though. From the brackets rubbing against the inside of my cheek, I developed sores that were almost like holes in my mouth.
The reason this happened was because I hadn't been aware the wax the dentist gave me would work as a barrier to keep from my braces causing sores, cuts, etc. Slowly but surely, I weened myself off of the wax so that my mouth could adjust and create grooves for the braces.
It's been almost a month, and I only have to occasionally use the wax, as my teeth shift, on the wire as it grows longer.
I wanted to say thank you to everyone for being so supportive and for keeping me in their thoughts. January 16th the one year anniversary since all of this has started. I never thought I'd be able to smile confidently
I'm currently a senior now in High school with only 4 months remaining. I'm in the middle of completing my Senior Project, as well as figuring out what I will do after high school.
I'll be attending a community college to do a 2-year transfer (so I can stay for the rest of my appointments) to East Carolina University to study music.
I am completely pitiful at keeping up with these blog posts!
Ah...
I don't know the next date exactly I will be posting again, but I will still be posting as I go through the rest of my appointments no matter how small or insignificant.
I finally got my braces!
I'm so happy, but I'm in so much pain!
In my opinion (because of all of the other things I have gone through), I feel I have a very high pain tolerance...
In the beginning, for the first 10 days, the pain was extremely irritating. It was not unbearable, though. From the brackets rubbing against the inside of my cheek, I developed sores that were almost like holes in my mouth.
The reason this happened was because I hadn't been aware the wax the dentist gave me would work as a barrier to keep from my braces causing sores, cuts, etc. Slowly but surely, I weened myself off of the wax so that my mouth could adjust and create grooves for the braces.
It's been almost a month, and I only have to occasionally use the wax, as my teeth shift, on the wire as it grows longer.
I wanted to say thank you to everyone for being so supportive and for keeping me in their thoughts. January 16th the one year anniversary since all of this has started. I never thought I'd be able to smile confidently
I'm currently a senior now in High school with only 4 months remaining. I'm in the middle of completing my Senior Project, as well as figuring out what I will do after high school.
I'll be attending a community college to do a 2-year transfer (so I can stay for the rest of my appointments) to East Carolina University to study music.
Thursday, October 19, 2017
Update on Life! 10/19/17
Hey guys,
Purple highlighted text is about my mouth surgeries, the rest is about, well... life! :)
Life has been eventful.
I've been distracting myself as much as possible, due to not hearing any news about my mouth. Today, I'm due for my second teeth cleaning after school... Last time I was there (6 months ago), I was supposed to be scheduled for my last major procedure.
My last major procedure will be getting fillings on the remaining teeth in my mouth, and receiving braces while under gas.
Again, I'm very sorry I haven't been posting, life has been taking many unexpected twists and turns.
On a more personal note:
Both of my parents' cars have made their way to the junk yard. My father has been having to come up with an additional $240.00 a week in order for our family to have transportation (which is very difficult when it comes to only one person, supporting a family of five, who gets paid (basically) on commission). I recently went into a spiraling depression because of my significant other of about three years cheating on me, and etc. I know it was just high school love and I'll get over it, it just sucks for the time being. :)
Life has just been difficult, but I know it'll turn around! I just got to stay positive! I'll update tomorrow, or ASAP when I find out more information on my surgeries!
Thank you again for the support.. I truly appreciate it :')
Sam
Purple highlighted text is about my mouth surgeries, the rest is about, well... life! :)
Life has been eventful.
I've been distracting myself as much as possible, due to not hearing any news about my mouth. Today, I'm due for my second teeth cleaning after school... Last time I was there (6 months ago), I was supposed to be scheduled for my last major procedure.
My last major procedure will be getting fillings on the remaining teeth in my mouth, and receiving braces while under gas.
Again, I'm very sorry I haven't been posting, life has been taking many unexpected twists and turns.
On a more personal note:
Both of my parents' cars have made their way to the junk yard. My father has been having to come up with an additional $240.00 a week in order for our family to have transportation (which is very difficult when it comes to only one person, supporting a family of five, who gets paid (basically) on commission). I recently went into a spiraling depression because of my significant other of about three years cheating on me, and etc. I know it was just high school love and I'll get over it, it just sucks for the time being. :)
Life has just been difficult, but I know it'll turn around! I just got to stay positive! I'll update tomorrow, or ASAP when I find out more information on my surgeries!
Thank you again for the support.. I truly appreciate it :')
Sam
Update on Life! 4/13/17
I'm finally 17! I thought I'd be more excited, but I was pretty mellow. :)
I figured I'd just post about how things have been since my last post had such a wide gap between the surgery and recovery.. I'm really sorry about that by the way.. I was depressed, and well, you get it.
ANYWAYS, I'm trying to stay optimistic! So here's a friendly update on how life's been for me! :D
I am back in school. I know you're probably hoping everything's going well, but honestly, It's.. not and I wish I wasn't in school.
Rumors claim I made up my disorder for attention, I made up the surgery, etc. My school counselor told me to tell her if I was having problems, but half of the problems i'm having wouldn't be believable anyways or helpful (considering I don't know names, and I don't have any evidence) I really hate talking about it to people. When I got back I mostly talked about it to the people that asked like Close friends, Teachers, staff.. The people I had to. The people who I wanted to share with.
It just saddens me that people believe I actually would make something like this up. :/
I figured I'd just post about how things have been since my last post had such a wide gap between the surgery and recovery.. I'm really sorry about that by the way.. I was depressed, and well, you get it.
ANYWAYS, I'm trying to stay optimistic! So here's a friendly update on how life's been for me! :D
I am back in school. I know you're probably hoping everything's going well, but honestly, It's.. not and I wish I wasn't in school.
Rumors claim I made up my disorder for attention, I made up the surgery, etc. My school counselor told me to tell her if I was having problems, but half of the problems i'm having wouldn't be believable anyways or helpful (considering I don't know names, and I don't have any evidence) I really hate talking about it to people. When I got back I mostly talked about it to the people that asked like Close friends, Teachers, staff.. The people I had to. The people who I wanted to share with.
It just saddens me that people believe I actually would make something like this up. :/
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